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Nikolai Lantsov, 24

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[rezni]

[ convincing? mmmm ]

I'm afraid I can't help you with the wine. But if you'd like company, I can offer that.

[princess_of_ida]

[Nothing happened. NOTHING. That was just a fragment of Nikolai's imagination.]

Don't want to feel anything for a while. Too much. Need to drink them away or to fuck them away.

[rezni]

I'm not sure I'm right for that. Would I be a reminder?

[princess_of_ida]

Heh. We could fuck each other while thinking about her. Wouldn't that be something? Bet a part of her would love that.

[rezni]

She would, until she got it into her head that she'd rather join us.

Would you answer a question for me?

[princess_of_ida]

We really should just bend her over something and spit-roast her.

I'll at least listen to the question. No promises on answering.

reworks this question on the fly

[rezni]

Maybe for a special occassion.[ a little levity on the way to— ]

Have you seen what she carried out of the Void with her?

[princess_of_ida]

[There were a lot of things drunk!Ianthe might not remember exactly right, but the things Alina had specifically asked her not to talk about was on that list. It's the only reason she hasn't let Nikolai know that she knows about the marriage. Alina never told her not to talk about the bones. She was still perhaps less guarded about her own involvement than she normally would be, though. But this whole conversation had been an exercise in why Ianthe should not be talking to people when drunk and in her feels.]

She brought nothing out with her that she did not enter with other than new emotional scars given to her by the false world within.

[rezni]

Were you there?

[princess_of_ida]

When she killed Aleksander? No.

Ask me what you really want to ask.

[rezni]

Did she come to you with it?

[ It. The bones. The would-be amplifier. Aleksander's death. ]

[princess_of_ida]

Yes. She needed me.

[rezni]

[ jealousy isn't the right identifier for the clench of emotion that comes in response to this confirmation. envy is closer, wound like a vise around his ribs. ]

And you gave her what she needed?

[princess_of_ida]

She needed my necromancy and lack of judgement. I don't know if the rest was because of me or just because I was the one there. I can never tell.

[rezni]

Would you know for certain, if you could?

[ Not that he thinks there could be a direct answer from Alina. Or that there is much value in putting the question to her; it's the kind of thing that could create fractures. ]

[princess_of_ida]

Sometimes. But probably not. This is just how it is. Frustration and all. We can't do anything about it.

[rezni]

No, we can't.

Does she know we've been together?

[princess_of_ida]

Not unless you've told her. I don't hide who I fuck, but I generally don't kiss and tell. If she asked, I'd tell her.

[rezni]

She hasn't asked any of that of me.

If she asks, and you're inclined to tell, I'd like to be invited to that conversation.

[princess_of_ida]

Why?

[rezni]

I'd rather not receive her reaction to it secondhand.

It may not matter to her. But if it does, I'd like to know.

[princess_of_ida]

I refuse to believe you're not thinking this all the way through.

[rezni]

I won't say there isn't a possibility of it.

[ "it" ]

But I don't know that it'll be the first thing that comes to her mind.

[princess_of_ida]

She's not stupid, Nikolai. The moment she asks me if we've fucked and my response to her isn't an answer but some version of "let's go find him first", she's going to know. And she's going to react poorly. Not because we've fucked, but because she's going to assume we don't think she can handle it, like she's some kind of child.

[rezni]

I'm not asking you to withhold the answer from her.

We might make certain we're all in the same place when the topic comes up.